First Post

Well, as my first post, it's time to start purging my thoughts and feelings because they're all bottled up and I'm feeling so much anxiety and frustration, I just need to get them out! I need a place to air my thoughts, and this might be the best place. I just got the call from our high school to come in at 12:30 to officially sign the "dropout" paperwork and return the books of our daughter who has decided to quit high school. This is such a bad decision, but only one in a long string of many decisions she has chosen to make. I'm very mixed about the whole thing, and it just makes my stomach knot up in a ball because I would never have chosen this route to knock my life so off course at such a young age and then try to remove the boulders in my path when "I finally wake up and get it" -- know what I mean? This is not what we taught her, and definitely wasn't even the road her birthmom took in high school. Oh, we adopted our daughter when she was 10, she is now only 15 days away from being 18!! And has run away again and has been missing since March 30th. Needless to say, she has now lost her job as well. She put herself in the position of not being able to show up anywhere because the police will bring her back home.